Here comes the sun.....

and I say, it's alright!  Yes, it is.  Today was hard.  I have a job that is sometimes hard.  School teacher here. Twenty nine year veteran-I teach the little ones to read and write.  Every day brings challenges and victories, and today was particularly hard.  So much went wrong and as I walked out of the building, I was physically and mentally exhausted.  After school, I had to run errands and as I paid for groceries, the sweet cashier called me by name.  She asked if I remembered her.  I glanced at her name tag and sweet face and could truly say, "yes, of course, I remember you!"  She was the kindergarten student that no teacher wanted in her first grade class.  I was the lucky one that got her!  I cried when I saw her name on my list (shame on me!).  I can truly say if she hadn't been on my roster, I would have missed out on an amazing little girl.  You see, her family background was awful.  She acted out in kindergarten and would throw fits at dismissal every single day.  Over the summer between Kindergarten and first grade, she was placed with a foster family who longed for a child.  This changed this little girls world and it also changed the foster family's world.  That sweet child showed up everyday and was happy when it was time to go home.  I learned something that year---teacher's should never "warn" others about students.  I quit listening after that year.  This sweetheart is now a grown woman working and going to school.  She got a second chance at life at the young age of six.  What a blessing!  I am so proud to have taught her.

As I took my daily walk today, I reflected on the fact that it is never too late to have a wonderful life, whether at six or fifty.  I spent so many years waiting for everything.  Waiting to get out of school, waiting to get a job, a house, have children, waiting for my marriage to get better, waiting for him to leave and on and on.  I finally had to take action.  For the first time in a long time, I took the first step toward a new beginning. Everyday is truly better than the day before and a bad day is just that, a bad day. (not a bad life!).  My goals for the future are just to grow into a better person each day and continue to make a difference anyway I can.  It is truly amazing that a change can completely remap the course of your life.  So glad KW got a new life and eternally grateful that I am forging my new life each day.  I truly can say------IT'S ALRIGHT!

For tomorrow may rain......

so I'll follow the sun.  Good days and sad.  Trying to find that silver lining.  Tomorrow will be the biggest life change.  I close on my house.  Again, never thought this would be how my life would turn out, but life really does go on.  Excited and nervous, but at peace with the decision to lay down new roots in a happy environment.  I have read the stages of grief, mourning and divorce and I may have reached the transformation stage.  That's a good thing, right?

Ob-La-Di Ob-La-Da

Life goes on......

My life changed completely and forever on September 1, 2017.  That was the day I packed up and left the home I had lived in for 22 years and the man I had been married to for 27 years.  Starting over at 50?  Good idea? Bad idea? Just plain stupid?

I have spent the last 7 months contemplating the answer.  Who makes that kind of change?  Just trying to make sense of my new normal and all the emotions that go with it.  I am truly trying to find the silver lining in every dark cloud.